So much of anxiety is about its physical experience.

When you exasperatedly claim, "I feel so scared”, you're not kidding. Sometimes, the feeling of anxiety is just about all there is to anxiety.

The physical symptoms can be downright unbearable.

What is causing your body to experience such debilitating symptoms? Your thoughts? Sure.

But if you know your thoughts are exaggeratedly irrational, then why are you still feeling afraid?

The answer lies in the Amygdala.

The amygdala is a tiny, almond-shaped structure deep inside the emotional part of your brain (the limbic system).

To understand why the amygdala does what it does, we need a basic understanding about why the emotional brain does what it does. 

The emotional brain is the oldest, most primitive part of our brain, which was mainly designed to ensure physical survival. Why?

Because in early times, it was mainly about physical survival. You were a good ol' fashioned caveman in a jungle and your call-to-action was to watch out for snakes, bears, foxes and other cavemen fighting for your meat and fruit. 

You needed a kind of brain that is quick, hypervigilant and out of consciousness, because consciousness would have been capable of wiping you off the face of the earth. 

"Ohhhh....I see...this is indeed a snake coming at me..hmmm...let me think...what should I do?...Let me take some time and plan this out. Oh, and by the way, now I'm now speaking from my grave."

You needed a visceral and autonomic brain for physical survival. And nature gave it to you. This is your emotional brain. Can you see why our innate, basic emotions like fear are so automatic? 

Over the course of evolution, the emotional brain wasn't really replaced. Thank goodness. Even today, I really need it to be quick and automatic if I run into that snake again. Or an axe murderer. Or a falling tree branch. Or my mother-in-law.

Our emotional brain wasn't replaced, but nature somehow figured that in this new, modern world, your needs are different. You no longer need to fight so much for your physical survival, but more for your social and psychological survival.

"My home keeps the snakes away, but god save me from that son of a bitch coworker trying to screw me over at work!"

Now you need a slower, more deliberate, purposeful and rational brain. One that can override your emotional brain's instant impulse to punch the 2-year old screaming bloody murder on your train commute to work. You need an adult brain that tells you to move over to a different compartment.

So nature recently gave you another layer of a brain called the neocortex. Other terms commonly used for it are the rational brain or the higher brain. This is supposed to be the wise brain. 

Being wise and strategic about modern day issues requires us to usually pause, reflect, weigh pros and cons, and then proceed.

These are deliberate actions. They're not automatic and visceral like our emotional impulses. It’s generally true that they can become second nature to us with time and practice, but at some initial point, the practice of accessing rationality by slowing down, pausing, reflecting and choosing appropriate action is new for us. 

For example, the impulse to yell at that screaming child is automatic. But reflecting on that impulse and deciding not to is more deliberate. It takes longer. You deliberately access your reserves of wisdom, spend a few seconds there, and make the wise decision to not punch the kid and instead, move to a new location.

In other words, given the mechanics of its job combined with its relatively new age in human evolution, it takes your rationality much longer to kick in than your emotions. 

Now geared with this understanding, let's come back to the amygdala.

The amygdala is not just in the emotional brain, it is deeeep inside it. Meaning?

It’s operating unconsciously. You cannot control its immediate, instinctive, automatic reactions because they happen much before your consciousness kicks in. 

What is it reacting to?

Heart beats faster. Muscles tense. Blood pressure rises. Adrenalin is pumped into our bloodstream. Lungs take in more oxygen resulting in shallow breathing. And many more reactions.

This is excellent news. Without your body prepared like this, you are simply not equipped to protect yourself in the face of genuine danger. How can you run away from a snake if your body doesn't "feel" like you'll be dead if you don't?

Another excellent news is that amygdala triggering is so incredibly quick, automatic and visceral, that consciously, you have to do nothing to prepare your body to fight or flight. The bodily reactions from a triggered amygdala just "show up in your life". One second you're a beach bum on a hammock sipping his Pina Colada, and the next second, you're sprinting for your life when a lizard falls on you.

Be thankful that your amygdala exists. It can save your life when the dangers are real. 

“Ok, so the amygdala produces fear-like symptoms, but why do non-fearful things trigger it? I can understand that if I see a snake, fear is expected. But what about things I know aren’t supposed to be fearful? Why does that amygdala react to them? Like my own irrational thoughts which I even know are irrational.”

This is the anxiety sufferer's question. 

I recommend that 8 things about the amygdala in the following table should be every anxiety sufferer's bible.

When  you show up to the table with anxiety, you are struggling with fear and fear symptoms from stimulus that aren't real threats. Even you know that.

What are these triggers?

These are thoughts you don't like (#3) and memories you don't like (#4).

"Why did I think this thought?", "Why do I remember this?"

Because thoughts and memories trigger your amygdala, you are also stuck with bodily sensations you don't like. Anxiety symptoms.

What have you likely concluded from your history with anxiety?

"My thoughts and memories make me anxious."

But the real reason you have an anxiety problem is because #5 is your real issue. 

Your prefrontal cortex (rational brain) is not able to switch off the false alarms raised by an amygdala that has been triggered by these thoughts and memories.

This is usually where anxiety is developed.

The prefrontal cortex is the part of the higher brain that is supposed to be the rational one. It assesses the situation rationally and interprets it rationally. It then follows it up with aligned action because it's not just about "thinking" wisely, but also correspondingly "behaving" wisely.  

• Snake? Danger. Run

• Rope? Harmless. Stop running. 

• Immoral thought? Whatever. Can't control it. 

• Memory? Painful. Don't fear it. 

• Perfectionism? Impossible. Trying my best.

• Shamed for being imperfect? Not my problem. 

• Past? Painful. Learned good lessons and will do differently.

The question marks are the potential triggers. For anyone. Not just someone with anxiety or a predisposition to it. The question marks are the conflicts.

But everyone has a rational brain that has the power to resolve conflicts in way that are healthy, thereby overriding the amygdala's emergency alarm. Once overridden, fear dissipates and the body returns to balance. 

In other words, the higher brain has the power to not lead you to an anxiety crisis.

At every stage of life and mental health, every person has the means to resolve his inner psychological life by himself.

What is the only thing he can rely on? His own mind. 

How does his mind guide him to navigate his internal life? When we ask this question, what we are really asking is how mature and wise are you?

When anxiety is our reality, it usually means that our own wise mind is not working very well to solve our problems.

That may be because our rationality itself is distorted. In psychological language, these are called Cognitive Distortions. 

What are these? Common distortions for the anxious person include thought suppression, magical thinking, mind-reading, perfectionism, black-and-white thinking, should-thinking, foreclosure and emotional reasoning.

And because these are distortions instead of healthier interpretations, they fail to solve our fears while we are confronting them internally in our heads. 

And because (usually) behavior follows thinking, the actions we end up taking externally can also be distorted.

If you are fully merged with the thought that claims to predict your demise unless you do "this", how can you not do "this"? That would be insane, right?

Witnessing our own powerlessness over these triggers makes us fear them more. The cycle continues.

What was described above was a dramatic example. Now replace it with less dramatic, more “everyday life” situations.

 What does your rationality tell you about how to deal with issues that rock your boat?

How do you deal with thoughts about your past regrets? With compassion, flexibility and hope, or nihilistic surrender?

How do you deal with the fear of having a panic attack? Face the fear anyway or chose to experientially avoid life?

How do you deal with the fear of meeting new people and facing the possibility of not being approved? Take the risk or isolate yourself from the world?

What you rationally think and choose is how your amygdala is getting trained.

In anxiety, we end up selecting distortions - both cognitively and behaviorally - which train our amygdala to raise louder alarms. The louder alarms need more help. More distortions. And the spiral is downward.

Follow these distorted patterns for too long in your life? From too early in life? In too many areas of life? The stress response is perpetually active in your body.

Soon enough these are what you accept as a labels for yourself - worrier, neurotic, Type A. This becomes your conditioning.

Have you been silly to pick up these distorted thinking styles?

No, you are not silly. You just didn't know that you do them. They are out of conscious awareness. It wasn't like you went to school one day, learned about these and then decided "Hey, Ima cause me a little suffering from now on. Yay, let's do these!"

 Just like the amygdala is unconscious, cognitive distortions too are picked up unconsciously. Usually in childhood.

Strange, no? Isn't the rational mind supposed to be smart enough to be, well, rational?

Sorry, but rationality too is developed. It doesn't just show up in your life all of a sudden. It is developed in your formative years based on what you see, and how you're getting trained to see the world.

Again, you're not aware of your unconscious learning. It's just something that happens. Your rational mind is unconsciously being developed by a whole lot of what is going on around you.

Maybe you're still unsure or unaware that you may respond to situations distortedly. Maybe you don't see them as distorted. "Hey, this is excellence, not perfectionism, and that’s distorted? Get outta here!"

Maybe you don't know alternatives.

All in all, for one reason or another, you keep them.

And these guys are the whole deal. The make or break deal. The ones which get to decide whether you move on or go down.

The good news is that once cognitive distortions are recognized and their destructive potentials brought to the surface, one becomes deeply motivated in learning new ways of thinking and being. 

Because it is only here, in the area of thinking and behavior, that we have any degree of conscious control. That can influence your amygdala and in turn, your anxiety.

The amygdala can only be trained with behavior and memory. 

It cannot be trained by language. I can't borrow from my high school principal and just command my amygdala to "better listen to me when I'm talking to you!".

The amygdala cares jack. All it wants is "Prove that you're not scared by behaving without fear and I'll buy it. Until then, my alarm bells are ringing".

Remember the amygdala is not out to get you. Quite the contrary. It's trying to protect you.

You have shown the amygdala in the past that your triggers have taken you down. If that is your only honest, factual, in-the-face, can't-deny-or-defend absolute truth, then that's all your amygdala knows and cares about.

So really, you cannot "tell" it that things are different unless you create a memory that things are different.

This means that unless you behave un-anxiously for that first time and create that god-forsaken positive memory for your amygdala to re-learn things, you cannot go far.

Now this sounds like a real catch-22 doesn't it?

You need to behave properly to calm your amygdala, but you really need a got-damn calm amygdala to behave properly in the first place. Right?

Wrong.

You don't need a calm amygdala to make your behavior happen. You may prefer one, but you don't as hell need one. Screw it. Not at this stage of your life (and anxiety). You have to make peace with your amygdala being what it is by now: “A highly sensitive brain part that triggers needlessly." 

Despite how much the symptoms suck, remember it's just in the beginning.

The amygdala is one heck of a trainable, mold-able piece of work. You show it a little bit of what it wants to see, and it dutifully backs off.

Yes, the symptoms will be a real bitch when you first start out, but so what? Not once have anxiety symptoms killed anyone.  Hold on to that truth and weather the symptoms. Let the amygdala do what it wants and still do the right thing, anyway.

What is the right thing to do?

This you will have to figure out as it depends on the kind of issues that rock your boat.

Sometimes it's clear what to do.

It is allowing the negative thoughts to continue, and despite them consciously deciding to face you fears. 

If your amygdala symptoms make you feel the dread, let them. Let them ride out their own storm while you continue to watch your TV show. Unfazed. 

Other times, it really, really depends.

I'm not a fan of articles which lists steps like "get proper sleep", "exercise", "don't worry", "think less". What if you can't do any of this because of the circumstances in your life? Then you need a more creative plan. Find it.

That's why it all depends. Because it's circumstantial. 

Is it quitting your job or not?

Getting married or not?

Going to the party because society tells you to? Or is it going because you'll enjoy it? Or is it not going because you fear a panic attack? Or is it not going because you prefer watching TV and you're okay with that? 

Which one?

In the end, you have to decide because they're your own triggers. Not mine. You have to figure out what to do so you suffer less.

These aren't always black or white answers. Only you can finally decide this.

If you need to start building the confidence to trust your decisions, that's a different matter. There you can get help. But the final behaviors will always be yours to make. If that freaks you out, figure out why.

With the right kind of tools and support, you can solve the mystery of your anxiety and head off in the direction of your choosing.

This is Amygdala Retraining.

Start getting educated and informed on what are the healthiest ways of thinking and behaving for you. Not for anyone else. But for you. 

At this stage. When you come with all of your unique anxious baggage. The pain and suffering that you've gone through, the misguided mistakes that may have followed but which can now be corrected.

Please remember to tell yourself that the brain can and does change. Scientists call it neuroplasticity.

Rather than regurgitating scientific results which I’m sure you can easily google by yourself in your free time, I’ll leave you with this to think about, just in case you ever doubted that change is possible.

Consider two opposite sides.

Scores of people who recover could not be leading healthy lives without a rewired brain and a de-sensitized amygdala. They made their brain change because neuroplasticity is real.

And similarly, on the other side, we’re told that Leonardo di Caprio voluntarily walked into OCD for his job. After his role in 'The Aviator', Leonardo developed OCD for about a year. To put this context, it means that he sensitized his own amygdala. That's how plastic the human brain is.

Then, after getting treated with mindfulness, he again re-wired his brain to fix his OCD. He then de-sensitized his amygdala.

His experience was like a switch to alter his brain: on-off, on-off, on-off. Self-directed neuroplasticity.

In conclusion, try to commit yourself to the belief that change is possible.